First Month: The Unknown & The Unexpected

Most of the women who have never been pregnant before often are unaware of the fact that they are pregnant in their first month. A lot of analysis and tools are available now days over the internet to find out the date of your conception but you can never avail them unless you know that you are already pregnant. So, we know the how part of the pregnancy but the when part is difficult to establish and by the time you find it you are already pregnant for at least a month.

And I was no different from those women. A month had already passed when I got to know that I was pregnant.

Usually, we ladies are ignorant or turn a blind eye to all those signs and symptoms of pregnancy till the disappearance of our chums. Then the anticipation starts until a urine test confirms that we are pregnant. So, it’s a fact that we ladies often miss all the thrills that the 1^st Month of pregnancy holds.

So, when I got sick and puked my intestines out, I just thought that I might have got food poisoning (ha... how should I know otherwise...). I remember when I told Nilu (a very close friend) about my stomach being upset, she suggested that I might be pregnant, but ‘me being me’, it didn’t make me suspicious of anything (how could I have been suspicious when I had been ditched by destiny before; refer ‘Prior to Pregnancy). Days passed by and my sudden rushes to the restroom became more frequent with massive acidic bouts but I never had nourished the idea of being pregnant.

Days flew by and finally the day came when I realized I had missed my chums. Anticipation rose, hopes were heightened; but I had to wait for another couple of days before I could take the dreaded urine test. That day too arrived and a nervous I walked into the restroom clutching the Pregnancy kit tightly. (I don’t intend to mention the gross details of how I performed the test... let us just say I did it). And I waited for the results.

Minutes passed by and an anxious I was desperately hoping for a positive result. After a long 5 minutes (though it felt like a decade had passed) I looked at the pregnancy test stick, and there it was a faint line stating I was pregnant. Time froze. Tears streamed down my face as I could hardly believe my luck. I was too terrified to believe that I was really (in a huge way) pregnant. So, I kept aside the stick, washed my face, cleaned my eyes properly to remove all traces of sleep and tears and then I looked again at the stick; it still had the line. Now tears of joy filled my eyes as realization struck me that I was pregnant (OMG!!!).

I ran to Sanjeev stick in hand (I was afraid to lose the proof) and woke him up from his slumber shouting ‘I am pregnant’. He too woke up shocked and when he saw the positive sign on the stick, he was over whelmed just like me. He took me in his arms and said, ‘Congratulations. I love you’. I was literally shaking the whole time now, so he relaxed me with soothing sweet nothings.

So, here I was 1 month pregnant being ignorant the whole time. And my journey has just begun. JJJ

N.B: Sanjeev, Nana, Bou, Maa, Nilu, Tushar and Kajal : Guys, thanks a lot for keeping the faith in me.

Sanjeev, Nana, Bou and Maa, thanks seems such a small word for you guys. The whole trip to this phase of my journey was possible for all your soothing words, comforting gestures, unbound affection and unending prayers.

Nilu, thanks a lot for the Red Label. I think you know what I mean.

Tushar & Nilu, thanks for taking us on Dahkineswari temple darshan.

Kajal, thanks buddy for listening to my concerns and woos always and tolerating my pranks and haughty mood.